Weird eh?
It's been nearly two years since my last entry, wow.
Funny where we allow life to lead us eh?
Where am I again?
Before I continue Imust point out this adorable lady named Suzi who does fantastic "multiple media" artwork, and her youtube videos are really awesome stuff.
Who knows, I might just pick up a notebook and start painting!
But lets not get ahead of ourselves...
everyone's saying different things to me, different things to me.
I would like to start writing again. If anything it helps to get some shit off my back. Don't know where to start, but I'll go with my instincts. Regardless of what everyone says, my instincts usually get me where I need to go.
Please don't wake me I plan on sleeping in...
I miss a lot of people. Everyone should already know this. If you are reading this right now you probably are one of them that I miss. But what am I to do? I would love to go back and find the time to show my appreciation to everyone. Show my continuing friendship regardless of the time and space apart. How do I even show my appreciation these days? Is a simple 'thank you' good enough anymore? It's funny how as I continue on forward, old rivalries between friends still do not enable me to have them all in one spot. I want to spend time with them. But if I am the only one who goes and makes an effort, then am I the only one who wants to spend time, do any of them care? Do any of them feel the same for me as I do them? Would I only be wasting my own time?*shrugs*
No change, I can change, I can change, I can change,
but I'm here in my mould ,
I am here in my mould.
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next,
I can't change.
Sometimes I look at my ceiling and pretend that the stuckle are stars and I try to lose myself in them. But something always claws itself back into my head, back into reality and I never get to let go. Is this how it is going to be for me when I die? Will I not be able to let go of this life in order to move on to the next? To live at peace with the world?
I have changed, I have changed, I have changed
-PJ
2 comments:
Sometimes we have to go into hiding, like your two year absence from writing, in order to get deeper aquainted with ourselves. Like butterflies in a cocoon. Something inevitabley helps us break out, and then we take all of our bottled up insights and let them FLY. Just like you are about to do. Being honest in your writing and art may make some people uncomfortable and they will tell you so, because it CONFRONTS issues THEY are having but dont want to deal with. Thats on them. You just keep going. No one can be PJ better than PJ and you do not serve the world by being quiet.
I know in my speach I dedicate my stuff to women but you know you are included right? You seem to understand that. Yay you! Im glad you are growing your wings - Suzi Blu
YOU ARE A MATH GOD
thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you!!!!
The teacher goes thru things very fast and doesnt like to go back over anything we've already covered. it sucks.
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